urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:ditzytwin05 better than a stain of you. i have grace 2007-10-26T07:09:20Z urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:ditzytwin05:79208 2007-10-26T07:09:20Z 2007-10-26T07:09:20Z im so tired of being sad.<br />im so tired of crying every night and feeling alone<br />every second of my life. im not saying this for pity<br />or .. anything. i dont know how else to let it all out<br />without cutting or tweaking my brains out. <br />so . <br />here. this is my attempt to obtain some sanity.<br /><br /><br /><br />... how did i end up here? <br />oh god i am so thankful for cash.<br />more than anyone can ever possibly know.<br /><br /><br /><br />but why did it have to be anthony<br />he is on his way to being peter and.. i just cant <br />take another slap or put down .. all of it. <br />why didnt i get out before why did i have to tweak<br />every waking moment of my life why does his family<br />see me as the bad one why am i alone now urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:ditzytwin05:69392 2006-02-23T18:24:05Z 2006-02-23T18:24:05Z damn.<br />i thought lj had pretty much died,<br />thats why i didnt care that it wasnt<br />friends only anymore. <br />i posted that thing the other day,<br />and daniel says yesterday "can you<br />explain something? why do people think<br />we are having a baby together..."<br />wat the heck?<br />he said his twin told him he heard that<br />from some girl. <br />HUH?? that doesn't make any sense.<br />well im going back to friends only.<br />im not keeping everyone either so<br />comment if you want to be added.<br />&lt;333 urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:ditzytwin05:39162 2005-07-06T17:56:38Z 2005-09-27T23:05:22Z daniel left for las vegas about 30 seconds ago and i already miss that crazy guy.<br />the other night when my mom and i were fighting, she said i wasn't allowed to talk to anyone or go see daniel eiher.<br />i told him that.<br />at 1AM there was a knock at my window... it was him.<br />i actually snuck out to sit outside in his car for the next 2 hours.. not to fight with him, but to talk to my sister.<br />she had called him and i finally got a chance to talk to her.<br />you kno it's bad when you have to sneak out to have a conversation with your own sister.<br />we talked about everything... aunt carmen, therapy, how it is like without mom, tristan who is walking now.. everything. <br />daniel and i saw her, robert and tristan yesterday. <br />i tried to bring cara but she went to her friend's house and i didn't see her again.<br />my mom is real nice to me now after kicking me out.<br />ahh. the crazy shit.<br />mayra and i are going to feel so weird... chris,jairo,daniel and karem are all going to vegas for work!! <br />WE SUCK BECAUSE WE ARE STILL 17 AND CAN'T WORK WITH THEM! <br /><br />sally didn't come over again to plan NY shit.<br />im so over that with her.<br />if im going.. ill do it myself.<br />&lt;3 <br /><br />and i had a fun phone conversation late last night.<br />it made me smile.<br />i heart shandy.<br />i miss daniel.